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Monday, September 01, 2008 -{'1:28 PM
LONG POST AGAIN. mind the spelling mistake.
if u guy feel is goin to be irriating den don read. no 1 force u. ((:
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hmm. time fly veri fast. 1 blink. 1 more month le. turn back and tink. last month de 01.08.08. he come my skool here fatch mi back to yt and bla bla. smsed mi with a veri sweet sms of happi 1 month.
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nw. nth. actualli is nt surprise tat he nv sms mi. coz already nv sms for so0 long. even meet with frens. we don even tok.
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ppl tell mi he feel im fan, say i nv change. BUT have u asked urself. the day u ask mi change is oso the day u start to cold to mi. u don even gif mi the chance to change and prove u. and when i wanna sit down and tok tins out with u. u said i talk this spoil mood. u don even gif mi a chance to speak out hw i feel tat y u wun know i feel.
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u say i fan, have u tink. when u always askin mi same questions, do tins i don like. i will tok to u and tell u. but nt say u irriating or wad. when u say u respect wad i say. but u tink back. did u reali do it?i nv even say or tink u fan. still forgif u.
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if ur mindset, keep tinkin im irriating or wad. even is juz gif u a call and haven even tok. u will juz tink 'sian. call again.' am i right?
or maybe the longer we go, the more u expect from mi. and main while. u expect from urself more to0. and u tink u are nt a gd bf tat y u start to stress.
and when u start to stress. wadever tins tat do with mi. u will tink im the 1 makin u stress gifin u stress.
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let mi tell u. i nv stress u, wad u wanna do i nv stop u to0. so far onli tok about tattoots i don wan onli. if u will to sit aside and tink. tink carefully. did i reali stop u doin anitin?
if ur mindset keep tink bad. of coz forever im bad.
have u even gif mi a chance to speak out about this r/s.
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this month, u wan call u den call mi, u wan sms u den sms mi, u wan ingore mi u ingore mi. izzit fair for mi? whenever u call,sms i will reply or pick. but whenever i sms or call u. wad i get? no reply and ans with a sian sian tone.
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till today. u don even wanna do anitin. or tok tins out. i believe u juz don wanna do anitin or maybe u donno wad to do.
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if u still love mi. u should come to mi and explain and tok tins out.
if u don love mi. why u don juz tell mi.
BUT u nv come and explain and u oso nv tell mi do u still love mi. u did nth but juz run away from this problem. leavin all the problem for mi to face it.
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cant u see or cant u feel i have try so much and do so much and i have change?
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from we together u have been tinkin u is nt a gd bf bla and bla. and im there keep tell u don litat tink. u even say happi to heard wad i say. even say if one day i leave u u will be veri sad. i guess u juz cant pass urself. as u keep tinkin u are nt worth for mi. and u make mi feel u stress urself to0 much till u feel tat im a burden to u.
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or u are waitin mi to let go? coz u don wan to say it? even if i let go. is nt i choose to let go. is becoz u already do tins till veri obvious. and i have no other choices. coz i cant speak out or no matter hw much i try. u juz simply don care. litat izzit the more i hold on to u. the more u feel stress and the more u feel fan, the more u feel guilty? if tat so0. tell mi.
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ytd i read back all the sms u send mi. till nw. i still donno y tins will become litat. ask u u say u donno y. cant u remember the sweet moment we been through? u totali forget? till nw i still hopin for the changes. but i guess im to0 silly. as it is so obvious.
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AHHHHH~ i tried my best. this is wad i can say.
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can we start all over again?
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overall: in a relationship. trust, understanding and the love is veri important.
ppl out there. trust and understand ur love 1. cherish them.
Simple iloveyou means alot.`
